Future Self

I see him now, he looks different, older, I saw him in the mirror this morning I think for the first time. I know now that time travel is possible, I do it every day, the difference is that now I see it for what it is, I am "aging", I am moving through time and as I do it "takes" from me, my DNA is no longer completing the entire replication process and it sucks.

So I'm in a constant state of "unflux", I find myself being undone by living, by getting to the next day I lose a piece of myself that can't return and I have to accept what is left to work with. I knew this was coming, I didn't think it would be so soon though, I thought I had more time. It doesn't matter who it is I'm seeing in the mirror although I do recognize the face, someday someone may read this and understand just what it is I'm trying to say as they too see a older familiar face in their mirror.

All I can do is fine tune myself, engineer an advantage that others may not seek, eat for life, move for life, read to engage and stimulate mental gymnastics, find solace in mind and body and then hold on. Companionship will be "air", without it, death would be closer, faster, more certain, I would strangle in a void of lonesomeness.

I wonder what "future self" thinks about all of this, does he make the right decisions? Is he staring at the stars and sharing his thoughts with his love, is he happy with his progenies and theirs? Everything that I do today works towards that end. I believe I can manipulate parts if not all of that future, there is no destiny that I do not have a part in, nothing predetermined that I can't change to my advantage, my biggest enemy will be human nature, most likely my own, this is where I need help, protection from my own mistakes. I can't think of everything but I do know who can fill in what I miss. Her resume sports 20 years of experience in me, time well served I hope.

Future self does OK.